Today 7/04/2018

I have decided to write and keep a journal, last yesterday late afternoon I met Maxi31 - Mia for the first time. A very nice forward clear practical person who seems to me to be honest candid and very open in clearly directing her vision and needs and wants at a practical level.

I feel quite at ease and intrigued comfortably and a pleasant level of inner joy ,very awear of sexual energy and enjoying the after glow of our synergy. Happy to have not ejeculated and I feel quite happy to enjoy my somatic and emotional experience. Mia seems to have a clear understanding and mastery of chasity and how to maintain a chased happy mindset within her boy. Wow so happy to be experiencing my experience.

Much to think about feel good about visions of what a future Dom/sub relationship maybe like with Ma’am lots of domestic dutie and new disciplines to embrace and maintain. Smoking is the biggest obstacle and challenge. Can see this as a challenge an opitunity to finally make the life style change needed, the discipline needed can be a catalyst for developing a more refined focuse that will have a lasting proactive reminder a cognitive marker a discipline adhered to that reminds me of my strength/vonerabilitys and will power to exchanges an old constant for an embraced new constant, A practical everyday discipline to maintain. 

Submission and obedience pops into mind cravings for an intensity and an emotional aliveness.. I recall Mistress mentioning her fondness to dispense corporal punishments at will and her love for caneing, it scares me some and excites me also.

Lots to do this weekend. I am building four flag bins for work, lots of reflector flags to sow. Need to get on with the job I have to complete one fag bin this weekend.